Do you realize that the Lord sees many of you facing abandonment issues and feelings of loneliness?
Some of you could be in a room with 100 people and still feel like you are the only one there. —I understand!
If you’re willing to listen, I want to clarify this. I realize I post several times daily, but it’s only because I have so much to share with you.
First, let’s begin with Psalm 34:18 which states.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit.’
This verse confirms that we are not alone in our feelings and mental torment: that Jesus is always with us, ready to provide comfort and healing for those who believe.
Through life experience, I realized that loneliness was never about people’s absence but the distance I created between myself and Jesus.
Before coming into covenant with Jesus, and in my sin, I would often feel utterly devastated and lonely in a room full of people at a concert, a nightclub, a party, or even in the Catholic church.
However, after my Damascus moment, Jesus saved me from myself, Satan’s habitual sin, and self-torture, and after a significant number of years of being led into the wilderness by God, set aside, serving in obscurity, I learned that I was not alone; I didn’t feel lonely anymore or desire large groups of people. I served Jesus and people with all my heart and gradually stopped posting about it. God saw what I was doing.
I became somewhat of a recluse.I did what I had to do, sharing Gospel encouragement on radio and TV, on the street, in rehabs, and even in prisons, without asking for money. —And over time, I learned through the ups and downs, the kind souls, and even multiple bouts of backstabbing that my worth was in Jesus.
As much as I love and adore people, too I realized that too many people would deplete my peaceful energy from the Holy Spirit. In fact: it was the enmy sending me out chasing what would be detrimental to my own well- being.
Go figure!
I learned that being alone is not the same as being lonely. Through the presence of the Holy Spirit, I learned to unlearn self-sabotaging behaviors and to love myself in a healthy way, not conceitedly. I also learned to genuinely forgive those who hurt me, and to communicate diplomatically with those who have differing opinions or faith than mine.
In my natural state, I began to love being sheltered, free from fancy clothes, makeup, elaborate jewelry, and the need to care about what people thought of me because I realized it didn’t matter.
Satan loves to hold people hostage through the opinions of others who essentially have zero power unless we give it to them. —This mindset was a far cry from the chaos I once sought, chasing people, some of whom I didn’t even like, to avoid being alone.
I did this to quiet the pain in my heart and the obsessive thoughts that tormented my mind. For decades, I held onto it after my family abandoned me at a young age.
I want to encourage anyone out there who is going through a lot of pain—whether it’s related to mental illness, spiritual torment, loneliness, or even thoughts of suicide. I am living proof that the presence of Christ can purify us from old pain and remove bitterness and anger, revealing our true selves in the presence of our Savior.
2 Corinthians 5:17 states, “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!’
To sincerely repent of your sins, renounce your old life, and invite Jesus into your life. You must be patient with yourself, as refinement takes time.
The Lord’s way takes longer than worldly methods, such as therapy because God is truly getting to the root of the matter supernaturally.
Recall, as stated through the prophet Jeremiah.
“But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,’ declares the Lord. Jesus loves you, and He wants to heal you.”
I speak Much love and healing over you in Jesus’ Name. —The LORD heal you.
God Bless you!
Sister Christine ❤️
C. Beach©️